Worried about weight gain… but not how you might think

YES… I’m worried about my current weight gain predicament. But I’m not worried that I’m gaining too much weight, I’m worried that I’m not gaining enough! I can clearly see that my belly is growing, and my last appointment with the ultrasound tech told me that Keelin is growing just fine and is right on schedule for December {a huge relief for my overly concerned noggin}. It’s just that when I look at the scale, knowing I’m over ½ way to the end, and see a number equal or LESS THAN that of the number the week before… I panic! Not to mention the countless times during the day when people tell me over and over again how tiny I still am. Normally that would be something I’d be flattered to hear but not when each comment makes me feel less and less healthy.

I am so worried that I’m doing something wrong in terms of keeping Keelin healthy and safe while she grows and preps for her grand entrance. People {including one of the other doctors at my midwife’s office} keep telling me not to worry, that the weight will come, but I can’t help thinking that something isn’t right. Perhaps it’s because I have about a million girlfriends who are also pregnant right now, and reading their blogs and status updates noting their healthy and consistent weight gain through the weeks puts me on edge. I realize that I had to do some catching up to do from the first trimester when I did nothing but lose weight.

Here’s the thing… I’M NOT HUNGRY. I mean, don’t get me wrong, when it comes time to eat I’m definitely ready but I have to force myself to stop during the day and make myself a snack; especially at the office. Maybe it’s a matter of being seated for 90% of the day, but something about that truck driver appetite I keep reading all about hasn’t kicked in. When you’re hungry you’re hungry and when you’re not, it can actually be difficult to make yourself eat.

All I want to know is that I’m doing right for my sweet little girl and this preggo paranoia is really starting to get to me.

I’d love to hear from moms and current preggos who are facing or have faced a similar situation. Did the hunger finally kick in? Were you just as anxious and nervous before hand? Did you find a simple way to remind yourself to eat during the day and what kinds of foods did you find felt less like force-feeding when you ate them?

HELP! I’M PARANOID AND GOING BONKERS!

Until next time...